Hurt me once again

Clear summer skies or golden fall
chilling winters or pouring rain...
Its you I think of day in day out,
the thoughts play on loop again n again...

Finding someone u could love with ua heart n soul,
itz like driving a luxury down a smooth sheer lane...
itz like taking a free fall out into nothingness,
for you dont knw where you gonna land...
it cud be the embrace of his arms,
it cud very well be an abyss or an agonizing flame..
but this very uncertainty is the charm here...
it is the beauty of this beautiful game...

But wen u know this 4 sure,
u r loosing ua soul to an ephemeral wave...
itz here today and gone tomorrow,
trust me the game is not the same...

For you, you have done best on ua part...
v wont get anything out of this, u told me there's nothin to gain..
u did try to make me understand,
in the end itz only gonna give tears n pain...
u went so far as to hurt me...
Intentional, unintentional...bt u r not to blame..
I guess u were only trying to make it easy for me,
make me quit this pointless game...

But for the amateur I am,
the love i have for you is just too much to contain...
what you did is appreciable,
bt we'll need more to kill these feelings, for they are feisty, hard to tame...

So, listen to me, there's somethin I wanna say..
yes, wen I say this, they may question my sane..
But I want to set myself free
And so I want you to hurt me once again...

If she has a helmet on !

You can be the reason for her pain or pleasure...
You may make her smile or sigh...
For she likes to wear it on sleeve...
Stab it,  Ain't nobody asks you why ?

Lovestruck lunatic, but no, she won't die !
All she'll do, may be cry a silent cry..!
For she chose to wear it on sleeve...
It'll be on her, no one's gonna ask you why ?

But just in case, you happen to feel a little of what she does...
may be you could give her little shoes a try...
may be u cn ask her if she needs a hug...
or a warm jacket for her cold sleeves...to ask, she might be too shy...

may be you can take her hands in yours,
u'll feel her pulse racing high..
may be you can put a peck on her cheek,
n u'll see it turn carmine...
Sometimes some moments can give you a reason to live on...
for a while, let her hold on...
A sweet smile, A goodbye kiss...
before you start walking your furlongs...
but if she likes music and if you like singing...
may be you can make her sleep to a sweet song...

P.S - you can always kiss her nose
if she has a helmet on ! :P  =D  ^_^

14 November of 2014

14 November of 2014,
Second Friday of the month;
met a stranger over coffee,
just another among billions under the sun;

A formal convo, a few fake smiles,
that was the end of that rendezvous;
and then came the weekend, 2 days' solace,
followed by looming Monday blues.

But for some reason that Monday didnt seem so gloomy,
felt like dressing in something new;
poor me ! didnt have any,
so compromised in a decent brown hue.

Indeed a hectic day for a newbie,
and there I was without a clue;
workshops, KTs and what not ?
A mere 30 min lunch break was a boon !

Knackered and totally exhausted,
reached cabin by 3, checked mail at 3:22 ;
And guess what, there was this guy from Friday,
I didnt think he would actually ensue !

A lync chat followed,
and we decided to meet.
it was going supersonic,
oh, i've olwaz loved the speed !

So, second meet at gate 2,
he stood there smiling, dressed in blue,
"I like walking, do you ?"
bone-tired, but "hell yeah ! I do."

And we started walking...
somewhere en route, I fell for his talking,
No, I'm not the one easy to get to,
but one smile n he gets me all melting.

Well, itz been a year now,
a year worth cherishing...
ethereal memories, a beautiful journey !
so here's a cheers, to this beautiful journey..
a journey which started on,
14 November of 2014 !

Word to long lashes...

A tall guy, he got a killer smile...
he says, hey girl letz walk a mile..
I can see the end as it begins...
there's a gaping valley down this hill...
but now that we hv started walking..
my hand in urs, n ol this talking..
we know wat we gotta know..
n yet here's a lil smthin I long..
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset in ua eyes
say it hey long lashes...
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams...

U say, No one has to know what we do
bout ua hands in my hair, ua clothes in my room
Nothing lasts forever but isn't this getting good now ?
there's a scent which lingers around...ears yearn for a familiar sound..
Someday when I leave u..
I'll see it in hindsight
Tangled up bodies...keeping up all night,
skin peeking through shades of brown..Burning it down
Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories will follow you too around...
So say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset in ua eyes
say it hey long lashes...
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams...

It lies within me

Sitting by the window pane,
watching woods flying past me, 
there I was on a moving train,
wondering, what's life ?
Whats's beyond that sky ?
Sky that bathed in pinks and blues,
those surreal hues;
and then that river so calm, amidst those arcane avenues,
hiding all the clues.
Oh, It's beautiful ! The world we're blessed with.
But this isn't it,
there's something more.
Mountains, valleys, skies or oceans,
they still have dimensions unexplored !

But when I close my eyes, 
my mind resting at peace,
pretty much to my surprise,
in that dark, I find a familiar bliss.
A heard call, a known vibe,
yes, I can tell it's the same energy;
it did take a while, but now I realize,
What lies beyond sky, lies within me !

Moon and the silver drop

Air was heavy n moist,
night was cold.
World was sleeping tight,
not a single moving soul !
Even the winds were weary,
under that somnolent moon.
A velvet white touch,
it made them swoon.
On dat blossom, which was yet to bloom,
a tiny silver drop was born.
Pure, pristine....she was virgin,
unsullied unknown, alone !
And the sublime was right there, 
under the watch of that big full moon.

But the globe was spinning at itz pace,
turning itz back to the moon's face.
He didnt wanna loose it, 
his sleeping beautie's sight.
Bt then, had to bid adieu,
for who can stand against nature's might ?
So, with the hope of seeing her again,
he see-sawed with the sun;
telling him to look out for her,
to keep her safe through his run.

The sun smiled at the lachrymose,
watching him sink down the blue horizon.
Then he looked upon that dew..
n there she was, still with her slumber on.
Now doves were cooing...clouds were drifting...
golden beams became brighter.
Yes, it was time for florets to bloom,
for the velvet whites to open wider.
And amidst all that hustle,
in the backdrop of growing rustle,
a faint drip went unheard...
no more velvet white, it was dry n dark earth !
wide awake now, petrified, 
scorching sun on head, thirsty turf on all sides...
her bad, she was too delicate...
they sucked out that sweet life...
too sad, she cud nt survive !

Hours passed, so did the hustle.
colors in the sky became more subtle.
n just wen the sun was about to go down,
a long lost friend peeked out, he had a big warm smile on.
Dumbstruck, the former went all red in face...
for some reason, he seemed to hv lost all grace...
A matter of minutes, he disappeared,
leaving the lachrymose ablaze...
for everything was exactly how it had been...
except for his precious, who was nowhere to be seen...
With growing night, he started to loose himself in bits...
n with every passing moment, he lost more of his sheen.

Night after night, through the fleeting days...
many silver drops did come his way...
bt he was struck hard, he eventually waned..
for first love aint easy to get over, itz either a boon or a bane !

He's not the one !

Every time I see him smile...

I feel a little something breaking in me..

for i know he'll b gone b4 long...

he's not the one with whom I belong...

n yet every time i see him smile...

there's this me, picking fights with me...

She tells me, one neva knws wats far beyond...

just live this moment, write a new song...

So here I am, writing new songs...

building memories, only to break them down ...

coz here's this me, picking fights with me...

She tells me, i dont know wats far beyond...

Ohkay no, i dont knw, wats beyond...

hell or heaven, where am I walking down ?

bt still with every step I take, I see;

Itz lil less vague, I see it more clearly...

The way he talks, Oh ! he plays with me...

n he wont introduce me to his family...

But wait, did I mention family ?

There's smthing m missing on, probably !

Yes, itz true he plays with me...

but so was I supposed to do...

it's a game,far frm verity...

we made sure that we both knew...

Well, so it turns out to be my fault...

shud hv got my heart a smile-proof vault...

bt now that the damage is done...

I guess the game is over for me !

but I wont blame him for my loss,

for i remember he did tell me,

that he's not the one who'll miss a train for me !

Long Time, No See !!!

So, itz been almost two long years...ya ?
A lot...as in ALOTTTTTTTT happened....back to Raipur from Mumbai, final year of clg, getting kicked out from hostel, back with Miss Sonam Gupta-my first year roomie, meeting my MIRROR MORTAL-Priyanka, Placement pressure, campus drives, T-shirt tearing ceremonies...DJ parties, group outings, night outs, Halloween, HOLI 2014 (with Anu, subbu, saumya and.....bezuba kab se mai raha...:D), clg fests-Eclectika, Shruti, Samar...and amidst all Semester Exams, minor, major...Game of thrones obsession along with fad for stupid fb pages - confessions, dudes n divas, nitrr beauties n wat not...:D Each of the episode is something which cant be just wrapped up in one single blog...Gosh, I already feel so nostalgic...!!!
And then came THE FAREWELL !!!

Bidding adieus...with tears brimming in eyes, cherishing memories in mind, forcing smiles on faces and harboring hope in hearts...to meet again...
writing testimonials to each other to stay in touch...Knowing dat u may be seeing many faces for da last time...n wen u see the face of secret crush, perhaps dat too for da very last time...oh, how u wish dat da world wud just freeze there for sm time...bt no,it wont, rather itz like the harder u try to hold on to time, the faster it slips outta ua fist...
and then finally everyone boards their train to different destinations...



But that was not THE END, but THE BEGINNING...beginning of a new journey...
There started that new chapter-INFOSYS !
It was Mysore DC...new place, new people, new culture, new system !!!

and a lot has happened since then too....and a lot as in....really ALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...!!!
As of now, here I am at my frnz, Avni's n Sudeepta's place in mysore...its 1st May 2015, has been almost a year since I stepped into Mysore now...indeed time flies by fast !
So today's not a working day...n I am shifting to a new place in the evening...from a 1 bhk to a 2 bhk...Why ? that's a whole another creepy story ! Vil write bout it may be sm other time...:D
But I am excited bout moving to this new place...itz an amazing house and I wont be living alone now...moving in wid a girl frm Dehradun, Arunima...my new flat mate...:D
And I think we'll get along pretty well...baki, letz c !!!
Ohkayyyy...Rest for later fellas...gtg now...!!
Enjoy ua weekend...!! :D